New Rules

For the past month or so I've been in a private group on facebook and we would make a comment of what we ate for the day and the workouts for the day. Weekly we would post measurements and weights. I was on full board and then something happened. I let vacation get in the way. After vacation it was really really hard to get back in the game to eating well. I got addicted to sugar and I'm more of a carbs girl usually. Working at Kwik Trip is awesome but not for my sugar cravings, lol.

Last night I thought of something new, something I never thought of before. I was in the mindset to get in the habit of writing down what you eat because that keeps you accountable. I don't like writing, even if that's so easy, so I noticed myself not always writing down the food I ate. Then, of course I didn't always eat well. What I thought of doing is writing down the bad foods I eat for the day. I don't have to worry about keeping a list if I don't eat anything bad! Loved that idea.

Today I did my new strategy and it worked wonders! I was at school for most of the day and we didn't have much of anything I could bring to school to have for lunch without it spoiling. I had a cake shake in the morning and then I went to the cafeteria to find my lunch. I had lots of thoughts in my head. Before lunch I even thought to myself, I can always start my new strategy tomorrow. I looked at everything I could have; mashed potatoes, corn dogs, ice cream, pizza, mac and cheese, and then I saw where you choose your veggies, meat, and it's all reheated on the grill. I went to that line and felt damn good. :) After being in line I saw you could add pasta and white goodness fattening sauce. It was my turn to tell what I wanted: double veggies and chicken. My sauce you ask? A stir fry sauce. The pasta I choose? I did not get pasta. :) No white carbs for me! I felt awesome!

After I ate I put my tray away which was by the ice cream. I went to the ice cream and asked the worker if he knew how much an ounce of ice was (as you could pay by the ounce). I had a great lunch, I deserved ice cream right? The guy didn't know. I looked more at the ice cream and the stuff you could put on it and then walked away slowly but then felt great. Knowing that my lunch did cost a bit much helped not getting the ice cream, I'll admit, but I also knew I didn't need it.

After lunch I went to my lab and then went to workout (which I talked about in a previous post today).

Group workout in front of mirrors

Today I had my first ever group cardio workout at the university I attend. It was a doosey and great! We all faced a wall full of mirrors. Great right? I wasn't to thrilled. Yet, it was a great time and glade I went.

Working out as a group pushed me harder. It made me not stop and walk out of the doors, the instructor pushed me more even though she was talking to all of us. There were times where it got really intense and I wanted a longer break or even make the workout shorter but that option wasn't there. I could have left but that was not an option for me when everybody was there.

Going back to working out in front of a mirror... When I saw myself in the mirror, I saw the person I had become and was hiding from. I didn't like what I saw and felt discussed (sp) but seeing that while working out pushed me to dig deeper. I not only saw how I was today but I also saw myself in other people; what my body used to look like. This also crushed me inside but at the same time also made me push harder. Typing this is even affecting me.

Belly size reality check

I'm watching Dr. Oz on my DVR. The show is about belly fat.
The goal belly inches he wants(healthy) is 32inches. I thought oh I'm probably fine. Reality check: I'm not. I'm more than just a couple inches too big.
This reminds of when everybody tells me that I'm fine and thin and shouldn't worry. I think all of the times people have told me this kinda made me the way I am today. I'm not placing blame because well I'm the one in control of the food I put in me. Yet, it's something to think about. Granted yes I was 20 pounds thinner in the past but I also was told those things recently.

First day/week of school

I love the start of a new school year; gives such promise. You feel like you can concur it all. Driving to school on Wednesday (my first day) I was excited and worry/stress free. I'm taking a chemistry class and a class about the career I can get w/ my degree; dietetics. I'm worried about chem but so far I'm not stressing about it and I'm eager for my other class. I may do some reading before the class starts. :) You know you are going back to school for the right reasons when you want to do that.

I couldn't be happier to be at a different job than I was just a little more than a month ago. I would be at all time high stress level. If work is something I hate, I can't stop thinking about it when I'm not working; it's hard to separate work and non work life for me. I beg of everybody out there, if you are not happy at your work leave or make a change!

I'm also excited to workout at the gym at the university. The great workout center and the classes are free for students. I don't work on Monday or Tuesdays. Those days I will go to a class the fitness puts. Super pumped up for that. I'll be on campus studying and then hit up the workout and then head home.

No More Lying to Myself

Reality it me this morning when our engagement photos were posted online. The photos were great! My body wasn't though. I had been lying to myself that having a donut at work was okay and I'll be fine. I also wasn't eating the best, I stopped drinking my shakes at times because I knew I wasn't eating well and didn't want to waist such a great shake. I also wasn't working out anymore. You can see the extra weight not only in my stomach area but also in my face. I was crushed. However, I do have more than one favorite for the photos! All of them are great but I have issues with looking at myself and my body isn't great.

You can eat junk food in private but it shows up other places later. :) I have till June 2nd if not sooner because my mom will need to make the dress before then. I have a fire lit under me and I can do this. I feel as if I have let everybody down who has read this blog and is on my fan page.

To view the great photos that Great Scott Images did go here: http://greatscottimages.zenfolio.com/p431974320

Banana Cream

I keep finding new favorites! This is called banana cream but it’s more like banana dream!Never thought I could enjoy something like this and lose weight. :) This has been my favorite 90 day challenge to date.

Easy Dinner

Need a simple dinner idea? Who doesn’t these days. I love making a good stir fry. All you need are veggies, meat if you want, soy sauce or a sauce you like, and some olive oil a pan and a stove. :) . For veggies you can use fresh vegetables, frozen vegetables, or both.

Tonight we cut up some onion and put in the pan with olive oil and let it sit on low to caramelize them. I then tossed in other veggies and heated everything up together i the pan. Tossed in some soy sauce and olive oil to my liking. Other days I have cut up chicken and cooked it w/ soy sauce and then tossed it in the veggie mixture.

What is cooking on my stove right now. :)